Saturday, March 29

Uncertainty

 


Nobody knows the pain in your heart

deep inside, the tearing apart.

Nobody sees how you silently cry, 

behind a fake smile, the truth in your eyes.


Nobody knows, how you burn inside,

how sorrow settles where hope once tried.

Nobody feels, how the sharp words cut,

how wounds stay open, never shut.


Nobody knows, you are so lonely,

This void feeling is killing you slowly.

Nobody knows, you are cold and broken,

with hidden feelings buried, never spoken.


Nobody knows your inner feelings,

deep inside this soul, silence sings.

Nobody knows, your inner silence,

There is nothing left to say where hatred is immense.

 

Nobody knows, you are dying inside,

you’re fading away, smiling through every shattered day.

Drowning in secrets you couldn’t keep,

washed away by streams of loneliness spreading wide.

 

 

 

 


This is actually an edited version of what I was originally going to post, and I find I like this one much better. I truly want to keep improving, especially because writing is my passion.

Thank you to everyone who takes the time to read. You make this all worthwhile. Without someone to receive them, poems and stories wouldn’t be nearly as meaningful, or as magical, to write.

 

 

 

Saturday, March 15

Give me serenity

 


I know I'm walking a fine line now.
Waiting for a chance.
To act before thinking.
I also know that one tiny little thing could blow up.
All because of my kindness is a sing of weakness.
All because I'll have lost control.
I fear this road I'm walking.
I just have to hope that I've learned enough over the years to help me cope.
To recognize the trouble and to be able to stop it.
So many years ago, I never knew why.
Why I was never able to even think.
I didn't know what was wrong.
Now that I do, I hope to be able to fight it.
And now living with this.
I now live with this.
Was a learned that started more than 20 years ago.
It may never go away...
I'd love to get to the root.
I feel physically affects how I feel emotionally.
I feel my body failing me.
Day in and day out.
The healthcare system is also failing me.
And that's quite a strain.
There are very bad days.
Such as today.
Where I just keep crying.
I am tired of being me.
Tired of not being able to do what healthy people take for granted.
I start to think the worst.
About dying.
I can't handle getting worse than I already am.
I don't feel emotionally strong enough to feel any worse.
Losing control of my body is scaring me.
It's tearing me apart.
It's breaking me when I'm open.
And you won't put up with my crap.

 

Can't handle the emptiness...

 

 


Saturday, March 1

Highway Dreams


Life is empty without love, it’s sad to think if the one you love doesn’t feel as much as you’re feeling. I’ve been in this state for months now, I don’t really like this feeling. I try not to think it. I’ve been deluding myself that we could have more. I guess I’m selfish because I want more from him. I want he love me the way that I love him. But I guess sometimes life is not like that cause I might like one thing and you like another thing so we’re always running at the opposite end. I don’t want to keep on feeling this way, to keep missing at odd moments and to keep hoping for things that could have been. I just wish to accept what we are and hopefully find you, my love, always in the horizon.
 

 




Saturday, February 22

El aire que respiras

Por los bordes, voy
por la mar airosa
en la suave brisa marina
de fresco amante.

Los días paso en la orilla
disfrutando de la suave frescura
corona de flores en mi cabeza,
con la primavera nacida,
Brotan alpacas y tallos verdes
emanando un perfume joven a hierba buena y dulces colores.

Sol abundante,
excepto cuando la calma entorpece.
de la abundancia el disfrute,
el viento que roza mi frente, mece mi pelo.
el brillo de luz de estrella,
sobre la fina piel de espuma blanca.

Para entender solo preciso,
precisamente a mi sola,
camino lo necesario para aliviar y avanzar,
de la angustia a una vital carcajada,
que se ahoga y destrona,
el color de la frescura, desde el cielo hasta el sol.
 






Friday, February 14

Viviré queriendote



En la mirada de tus ojos me veo reflejada
Quiero ser feliz 
el tiempo me golpea como una ráfaga helada.
me marea
y  caigo lentamente en tu amor ...
♥



Saturday, January 11

Si te vas

  

Un horizonte no es más que el límite de nuestra mirada.
Y pensar que podes sentirme, aunque hayan miles de distancias 
entre los dos
❤️

 

Saturday, January 4

Remanso de paz



Toma mi corazón,
y hazlo tuyo,
mira lo que tienes,
escucha lo que sientes.

Toma mi alma,
y hazla tuya,
contempla lo que tienes,
abraza lo que sientes.

Toma todo este amor, corazón mío.
Y hazlo una plegaria.
Alivia tu dolor,
y el mío.

 

 


Sunday, December 29

Escrito en mis versos

 


Mi sentir.

Mis respuestas.

Mi mundo interior. 

Tan profundo en toda la simpleza. 

Mi alma.

Mi amor.

 

 


 

Sunday, December 1

Primero de los últimos

 



Instantes que permanecen 

en la historia de la vida.

 

Susurros en la oscuridad. 

 

Todo lo que veo son tus ojos mirando los míos.

 

Y yo sé que la vida es ésto. 

❤ 

 

 



 

Saturday, November 16

Empire Seasons





I've ALWAYS thought I was the luckiest woman on the face of the earth.  
I've been favored more than any individual has a right.

My best moment was unforgettable.  

Being in love was the greatest moment in my life.  
The world seemed so clear, 
beautiful and I knew life was a great journey. 
Knowing I was  in love after waiting and longing for someone 
was the best moment, for sure.

-Now - 
Things have really turned around for me in my life. 
Now everyday is one step closer towards what I want 
to accomplish instead of being stuck in the old rooms.
It's taken me a long time to get to this point in my life. 
it's ME against the world.


★


I don't know why I love this poem so much probably because it's so true.



Saturday, November 9

Debo saber

 


En esta vida

 

¿Existe algo más profundo 

que encontrarse con el verdadero amor? 

 

Si.

 

La ausencia que sigue tras perderlo.

 






 

 

Saturday, October 19

Ambivalencia

 


Los cambios nacen de la diferencia 

entre la costumbre y las ganas. 

Surgen de la íntima discrepancia 

entre lo que hacemos 

y lo que anhelamos hacer. 

Porque implica renunciar 

a lo que nos proporcionaba una sensación de estabilidad. 

Los primeros pasos son siempre volubles, 

provocan malestar. 

Y, pese a que con frecuencia 

implica una experiencia dolorosa, 

procesarla y entenderla es clave para avanzar.

 

P.D.: Me gusta el cambio. Moverme, avanzar y crecer.

Porque significa salir del confort y la mediocridad.

💋 

 

 

 

 

 


Saturday, October 5

Otra parte de mi


El alma siempre vence la inquietud del yo subconsciente. Siempre!


Sunday, September 29

Los últimos días

 


Pienso que este mes alberga dentro de sí mismo una dualidad con sentimientos opuestos, alegría y tristeza, esa contradicción cognitiva es disonante en uno y en el otro sentido sin ninguna razón aparente.

 

 



 

Tuesday, September 3

Too much time inside my thoughts

I'm glad you're back, it took you a while... Anyways, here's the thing when sometimes I feel as if I spend to much time in my head and forget how to express it through words. I do a lot of seeing not only with my eyes but with my heart. Not everyone sees life things like I do. I see the most beautiful things in the difficult kinds of things. There's always some kind of unkownly understanding and kindness that lies within me. Cause I know for damn sure there isn't enough of it. I guess I'm very creative, definitely very unpredictable, just a bit eccentric, temperamental, I love hard and very deep, I'm meticulous and cold, because I'm such an extreme person. I can be very quiet one moment and then very loud the next. I can be cuddling a child and adoring a beautiful animal one second and the next I could be trying to kill someone -i get this a lot, especially when I'm any competitive situations, in business or in a sport- I could be at a party in a corner one minute and the next I'm up on a stage or on a table dancing. I love black and white photos, reading books, watching movies, astronomy, salt and vinegar chips, junk food, smell of a freshly cut grass and summer rain, gazing at the stars, sneezing, freezing my ass off and then getting into a warm house, spring because everything's in bloom and fall because leaves are bright red, yellow, orange etc. Animals, travelling and learning about new people and their cultures, kissing, butterflies in my stomach, anything different and unusual, snow, laughing and making people laugh, jelly beans, strawberry and lemon Ice cream, I've mentioned food a few times, I must be hungry. I love LIFE... but having great family and friends, nothing beats that. And I hate people who hate other people because of their race, colour, religion and sexual orientation, animal cruelty, liars, manipulators, cunning people... hmm can't think of anything else, I'm sure there's more... I could go on but my favorite TV show's on so I'll leave it for now.








Saturday, August 31

Tu amor mi amor



Me iluminaste el mundo con las estrellas en tus ojos
y te adueñaste del más hermoso sueño 
en lo mas profundo de mi alma.
Tu universo me encanta
me resulta curioso y particularmente familiar
se me hace desbordante la sensibilidad que muestras.
La perfección de todas las perfecciones
desde el brillo de tus ojos hasta la frescura de tu sonrisa,
la felicidad que inspiras,
el sentimiento que provocas,
son inexplicables, pero me hipnotizan al observarte,
y contengo mis emociones,
te aprisiono en mis sentimientos,
y me abstengo de gritar al viento
cuanto te quiero, con todo mi ser.
Te amo
y sólo quiero disfrutarte junto a mi.
 
 
 

Saturday, August 3

Subconsciously


✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ 
Oh, memories give the illusion of lasting forever, are what make it seem to last forever, and when something ends, we can't help but naturally replay things back. 
Um. You know, It's like having a movie playing in our heads. 
✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ❈ ✩ ✮ ✯ ✰ ❇ ✩ ✯ ❈

  ❀◕ ‿ ◕❀



Saturday, July 13

Smiling face here



I learn from my mistakes :)
I am willing to change and grow from them.
Life is beautiful and every day is a blessing and new fresh opportunity.

I focus on who I am and what I want. 
I love when things go my way
I had a restful sleep rejuvenates me, preparing me for what lies ahead.
I am going to see and spending time with my family this weekend.
I have what it takes to succeed.
The challenges behind me are lessons.

I am ready for a happy and productive day.
I am trying, so that is all that can be asked. 
I remove toxic relationships from my life is a conscious choise

and it makes me a better person. 
I am working hard to do all positive changes.
I can deal with anything.
I can accomplish anything.
I am in control of my state of mind.

I confront challenges with resilience. 

At the end of the day, I feel great. Now that’s living! ;-) 

 

A really happy love and inspirational writing which is just bad at a time like this for me

but well i wrote it and i still might as well submit it



Saturday, July 6

Oropel



Así sucedió.

siglos de espera.

Juntos pero sin verse.

Se cruzaron y se alejaron.

No era necesario esperar mil años

se entendían plenamente.

Y uno, quién más amó solo supo herir al otro

y aquél, que más comprendió 

nunca conoció la cercanía real.

Al amor más grande, 

Que es único y digno de ambos.

Porque descubrir un alma transforma 

y nadie sigue siendo el mismo

y se entrega por completo 

a su tierno y apasionado corazón.

Como envidio esos ojos que fueron testigos y los vieron

imágenes que duermen en la memoria.

Hasta el día en que, hacia el horizonte, se desvanecieron.

Un pequeño ramo de flores y en ese instante, 

se olvida todo lo demás.





Thursday, June 20

Beseeched



I have never experienced a love as profound as the one. I feel for you. I've never known someone so well, and still felt there was so much left to discover. I've never known someone I could spend hours with and still long for the time to share. Never felt so close to someone in so many ways. Never been able to say "I love you" and it means something beautifully different every time. I love you enough to fight for you and sacrifice myself for you if need be. Enough to miss you incredibly when we're apart, no matter what length of time it's for and regardless of the distance. Enough to believe in our relationship, to stand by it through the worst of times, to have faith in our strength as a couple and to never give up on us. Enough to spend the rest of my life with you, be there for you when you need or want me and never, ever want to leave you or live without you. I love you this much.
I've never love someone so much. You mean the world to me and so much more. All my life I have felt worthless, but you make me feel like I have a reason for being here. Your the best thing that has ever happened to me and I never want that to change. Please, don't ever hurt me. I've been through too much to be hurt even more I don't think i could bare it.


Saturday, May 18

Vibrante Sensibilidad

†
 El cielo está inquieto
las nubes se unifican
y bajo la sombra de los árboles
todo se resguarda.

Flores y un cuadro surrealista
colgando de la pared, adentro.
Afuera, melancolía
viento y agua helada.

Esquinas
ángulos dispersos
fantasmas
muy habitual para mí.

Intuir, no mirar
para ver más allá de los ojos
descubrir secretos
encontrar risas y lágrimas.

Estoy pensando
que llueve a cántaros,
y si no para, me ahogaré
permanecer, hasta no poder mas.

Escucho que
no hay nadie a mi alrededor
Y, es tan claro el sonido
debo seguir adelante.

Hace demasiado frío, 
los latidos de mi corazón no se oyen
no los tengo que escuchar
si vos lo haces.

En la encrucijada me paré hoy,
veo la vereda cubierta de hojas
escucho un eco en el viento
son los latidos del corazón.
† 




Saturday, May 11

Un azul anochecer también es poesía


  

Y hoy está re lindo 

para dormir 

en los versos de una rima.

 

 



 
 

 

Saturday, April 27

Hallo mein Schatz


Ist nett, dass wir reden können
Das tut mir gut
ich bin gerne hier 
Ich liebe es zu lachen :) 
unverhoffte Zärtlichkeiten
Ich werde dich in meinem herzen vergraben
Jep, is er
und das ist gut so mehr.
neu durchleben
es ist nicht leicht,
Meine Augen tränen verzweifelt
Es ist nicht leicht,
Du bist in meinen Augen nur 
aus meinem Leben,
Komm geh, 
ich flehe dich an geh
Meine seele schmerzt mir schon,
Ich werde dich vergessen,
Es tut mir weh,
Deine trennung ist ein tiefer stich in meinem Herz!!!

P.S: Ich liebe dich über alles!!! 



Bis dann 
Tschüß

 

 

This is a really cute poem not like I normally do. I love this poem though and I don't know why..... maybe you can tell me... so enjoy
 


Saturday, April 6

Volví a mirar atrás

 


A lo largo de la vida, uno resurge, trasciende y persiste. Requiere de fortaleza mantenerse a flote pese a las embravecidas aguas del destino, la incertidumbre del dolor y de la adversidad. Valerse de las dificultades y obstáculos para construir un puente. El camino difícil es también el que más nos angustia, y cuando aparece un problema viene con la idea de renunciar y dejar todo. Sin embargo, es el camino que más experiencias enseña, nos deja crecer porque nos fortalece. Lo ideal es esperar y confiar, a veces es mejor valorar lo que logramos al día de hoy y listo.