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I know I haven't written in a while, and I certainly haven't posted anything in a while. I just wanted to let you know that that's going to change. I'm planning to go through all of my old poetry and figure out the stuff I want to keep and the stuff I don’t. Some of the things I’ve posted before are too personal, too raw, and just plain not good. I’m going to remove them here within the next couple of days, then go through it all and resubmit the pieces that I think really capture important points in my life, as well as my ability as a writer. It’s going to be a long and painful process, I’m sure, but I think that what I can actually look at and use again will be well worth it.

Some of you may have already noticed that I went through and deleted and/or removed a lot of things. I really want this website to be a source of inspiration and comfort for me, and in order to achieve that, I needed to figure out what was truly important. I promise you all that these things will grow again, but in a much more productive manner for all of us.

Like I said, it’s not going to be a quick or easy journey, but I’m hoping that if I take it one step at a time, I’ll get there—and will truly have a blog that I’m proud of and can call my own! That being said, I’m also going to have a hell of a lot of fun discovering myself all over again, and hopefully finding not only new friends but new inspirations and creative outlets as well.

I just wanted to give an update to all of those who are paying attention. It’s been a hard process for me, to be honest. I loved each and every work I had in there for one reason or another, but I really did need to refocus my writing and realize what was truly going to push me to be better at my craft in the future.

Aside from that, I’ve also been turning up the dial on the whole deleting process. It’s been a very slow and painful task. I’m trying to do about a hundred every two days or so just to keep myself on track, but as I look through them, I can’t help but stop and read them all. It’s been a trip down memory lane, to say the least. I can’t believe how far I’ve come and how much just a couple of years have caused me to grow.

I just want you all to know that you won’t be disappointed with the changes I’ve made and with who I’ve become. Just hang in there with me—let me clean out this old page and do my thing—and you’ll have just as much fun on this adventure as I do.

I just wanted to let you guys know that I’m still working on the revamping process and all that good stuff. It’s taking a little longer than I’d like to delete all the poems and such, but I should have expected that, considering how many there were. I was reading a few of them, though, and I’m amazed that I have any followers at all. Some of these poems are truly not good—and some of the fiction as well. I can’t believe how much I’ve grown, and I really can’t wait to see it all come together and to be able to look back and see every bit of that growth through the years.

In other news, I’m so excited I can barely contain myself.

All in all, I have a feeling of these are going to be a lot of fun—something I’ll carry with me for the rest of my life. I know it’s not going to be a walk in the park, but I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m more than up for the challenge. I’m ready to kick some ass and show the world what I’m made of!

I logged on to my blog tonight and realized that I might have been wrong. It doesn’t feel right to be on it. After all, this page may be filled with so much drama that it’s ridiculous, but it’s mine—and it’s my angsty teenage self. I’m not the same person I was before, but I’m still Miru, and that means I’m still made up of all the things from my past. I may be an adult woman now, but I’m still the angst-ridden teenager from years ago who was obsessed with so many dorky things and full of piss and vinegar. I’m back tonight for some reason I can’t quite put my finger on. I’m going to poke around, explore, find out what I’ve missed, and maybe even submit something.

I love you all, and I’ll keep you posted on what I’m up to on the page, as well as when I’ll start submitting things again!