Tuesday, April 26

Aiming for a self-centered stance

I'm trying not to love you
I'm trying not to care 
I'm trying to be selfish
I'm trying not to live my life wishing you were there
  I try not to wonder where you are or what you do
I'm sorry I can't help myself
  I've unwittingly fallen in love with you.
♥
 
 
 


 
Something I randomly wrote last night and that I really like! I love the way it turned out so well yea... Other than that not much I can say about this but that I love it!


Saturday, April 16

Inmenso e infinito es mi amor



Deseos de tenerte y no poder alcanzarte 
Aunque no lo sepas quise decirte que te quiero 
Pero no pude mirarte a los ojos y expresar mis sentimientos 
Con una mirada profunda descubrí que te amaba 
Y sí, ya nada importaba,  
solo tenerte a mi lado  
y con cada caricia decirte lo que te amo. 
Mis ilusiones siguen creciendo,  
aunque no me animo a confesar mi amor 
Solo me conformo con verte,  
pero no es suficiente para llenar este vacío que siento  
dentro de mi corazon.




Sunday, April 3

El cielo se cae





La incertidumbre.
La tarde de lluvia.
Porque de lluvias y recuerdos 
también estamos construidos.
Lluvia y nostalgia
es el mejor plan.



Friday, April 1

Miracles are possible

♡ ♡ ♡

I still remember the moments we've shared and It's truly amazing how whenever we get to talk.
You are one of the most sincere and purity of heart make you of the most genuine souls to have ever existed.
Your uniqueness is extraordinary, and words cannot adequately convey the depth of my appreciation for you.
Imagining the shared emotions and possibility of you contemplating me in return creates a profound connection that is beyond verbal expression, be out there thinking of me too. I said these sentiments because of the inspiring quotes and profound thoughts you generously share. It feels as if we must be soulmates. we are so much alike in our personalities.

This it is makes our bond even more stronger.

Thank you for your presence, for the joy you bring into my life and for always being there making me happy.

Thanks for the amazing person that you are.

Thank you for being you.












Saturday, March 19

What is life even?

I tried, I tried, I tried a lot...
Perhaps selfishly!
Driven by an insane pride.
I was like a blank page and stolen words.
Something's odd bout the love that once
used to captivate me,
always in my thoughts 
now and all the time.
I left my soul there.

 

 

† wħi§pєя§ †


WELL: I've never had this happen to me before, felt like 'Feeling'. It was as though it had always resided deep within me, but for the first time, as though I was in a spiritual way connection and no one ever knew how I was feeling with all of the love...




Saturday, March 12

MIRAME







Con esa mirada intensa 
que me incomoda.
En tus ojos, el tiempo es interminable
y un solo segundo dura una eternidad.












Saturday, February 26

Otros designios



Quién quiso contemplar la oscuridad de la noche

en la omnipotencia de su copa ardiente

para distanciarse de la realidad en el proceso.

 

 





 

Saturday, February 19

El desierto




Soledad y delirio  
Tristeza y silencios 
Hoy sufro por un error 
Que cometí hace algún tiempo. 

Hoy dejo que te vayas 
Con tu amor y tu destino 
Con tu alma y con tus sueños. 

Me di cuenta de lo que te quiero 
Y decidí que... no quiero
Que nos hundamos en el mismo sufrimiento. 

Comprendí que lo supe a tiempo 
Entendí que lo necesitabas 
Nos hicimos daño sin querer. 

Y ¿Por qué?

Cosas que nos dolían
que debíamos perdonar 
con los ojos, con el alma, sin palabras.

Porque quizás fue tu error 
Quizás fue mi error.




Saturday, February 12

Exploring Emotional Detachment and Attachment Fears

 


Okay, It was inspired by a conversation with a friend. I like how it turned out, and I enjoyed writing it because it reflects how I feel at the moment. As always, I'm looking to improve.

 

People often turn off their own emotions from a young age because they feel invisible, unnoticed, like they are not seen or heard by those they desperately want recognition from.

Forming healthy attachments is crucial for our well - being. However, there might be a fear or concern that emotional attachment will lead to pain, which you wish to avoid. 

Could it be that you're afraid the basic need for closeness, which everyone experiences, will lead to pain that you want to avoid? 

Is there maybe a fear, a threat that bonds will cause pain that you do not want to feel?

There are many reasons why you might struggle to form attachments or miss the feeling of connection with someone or something. If the absence of this attachment feeling truly bothers you, it may be due to the fragile nature of early attachments formed in the womb, which can be easily disrupted when our needs are not fully met.

I don't really miss anyone from my past. On the contrary, I have a tendency to create an idealized version of what I wanted them to be. These people aren't real; I made them up in my head. 

So, I'm great at shutting off my emotions and memories, but I understand why I do it, so it doesn't bother me now. I can accept it. You can too, once you understand why you haven't formed the deep, loving, and safe attachments that make you miss others.



Have a great weekend. May God bless you and I hope you sleep well.

 

 

 


Saturday, January 29

Jardín eterno


Vuelan mis pensamientos infinitos y profundos  
y mi espíritu solo al conmoverse tiembla.  
Son sentimientos que guardo para mí  
los conservo como tesoros en mis ojos lejanos.  
Donde mis ideas resplandecen de momentos   
a donde mi voz no llega. 
Donde los recuerdos se embellecen con el paso del tiempo.  
Esta es la distancia entre mi cándida inocencia  
y mi pálida locura que me separan de mí misma.  
Esta noche sola mi alma 
dormida o pensando en quien sueño  
quien hoy es toda mi alegría y esta es mi ilusión
cargada de risas y alegrías 
caricias sobre mi piel sedienta de su esencia,  
envuelta de recuerdos, 
algunos un poco tristes, 
grietas que aun llevo sobre la piel. 
 por el tiempo y la distancia.  
porque por solo una vez mi rencor se filtra y opaca mi tarde gris
Siento frio.  
el frio de la nada.